:)

This may be hard to believe, but I am actually happy without him. I may think of him from time to time, and maybe I still have feelings for him. I realize that there just feelings, and eventually they will fade. It does not mean I'm not ready to move on without him, the truth is; I am move on. Then eventually, I will slowly stop mentioning his name and I can't wait for that day to happen. :)

Surprise!

This is the only way for me to spill my heart out and without you finding out. I'm asking you to prom, this maybe weird for me since I'm a girl. Hey, I got a reason because its my prom and your in college. Even if you don't have feelings for me anymore, it's worth a shot. I want you to see me as the same girl you fell in love with. I can't promise you that everything will be great between us, I know it will be hard as hell. I'm going to make this a big surprise, and whether I get rejected or not I will still be happy. I can't contact you, I don't want to. I want to make this right this time, after high school we will be so much better. I know nothing being able to talk to you is best for us right now. It's a chance for us to fix ourselves, and whatever situation we are in. I want you to be happy because I love you, you are a great impact in my life and I know nothing will change that.

01

Dear Diary,
today was in a way a great day. I did not think of him today, or was I upset. I just held my guard up and keep going with my life, I'm hoping soon I'll completely stop thinking of him. My heart still aches, well you know its normal. I still want to cry from time to time, because I missed him so much. I loved him with all my heart and I still do, my feelings still never went down not even one bit. It sucks that he doesn't feel the same way, maybe its the best thing for me. Maybe this is the way it supposed to be, I guess I was just dreaming that maybe he could be the right guy for me. I was just living in a dream, and so I kept telling myself that we won't ever break up. Love can make you do a lot of things, but I ignore it because I know he was worth it.I wrote a letter to him today, but I don't think I should send it anymore. I won't ever see him anymore.
Was I worth to him?
Did I mean anything to him?
Did he loves me as much as I loved him?

I honestly don't know, I will never really find out.

It's time

It's time to get over you, since you are over me too.
Nothing I can do, since I want myself to be happy too.
You put me through so much shit, I don't think you know how it feels.
I don't love you anymore, it's time to let go.
I hate you so much know that you don't deserve anything good happen to you.
You take everything and everyone for granted. You just care about yourself, hopefully one day you'll realize how much crap you have done but it will be too late.
I HATE YOU SO MUCH, I DON"T CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOUYOU RUINED MY LIFE, YOU ALSO RUINED ME. YOU ARE A LIAR, FAKE PERSON, I HATE YOU. I REALLY HATE YOU.

Confession

I'm honestly not counting the days when you start to realize I'm not right for you. By then, I'll be making my own new paths to take. Forgetting who you were, or what you become because your not going to come back. I'm going to stop expecting, and not let you in my life anymore. You are a completely different person, you did not change as a mature person. You become a jerk, asshole, and heartless person. I'm not going to get you back because I know what goes around comes around. Thanks for making me learn everything I needed to know.

can't take this anymore

I want you to know that you used to mean so much to me.
I want you to know that I used to be scared of loosing you.
I want you to know that my loved for you never ends.
I want you to know that I spilled my heart out, even if it starts to break.
I want you to know that I pray for us. I didn't want us to be like this, especially end like this.
My weakness is you, I was so in love with you. I couldn't see myself without you.
Now I need to stop.
You mean nothing to me anymore, I don't want to think about you. I don't even want to hear your name. I want to forget you, I want to forget that we ever existed. I want to walk away, and never come back. I don't want to spill my heart for you, I don't want to do anything with you anymore. This is the last time, nothing will break me again.
I'm done with you, bye forever