I wish I can live in this place, it looks so peaceful and full of happiness. It's so breath taking, I wish I can just stay in that place. It looks so safe, and free=) URGH lol.

Realizations

Don’t you ever ask yourself why are you living? Why are you here in the first place? I know it sounds all sad and all. I really think there’s a reason for those questions, sometimes we have to keep answering and answering. We always have to ask ourselves why do I still keep going, when there’s nothing happening or no changes. When you thought you already knew the answer to the question, there’s going to be another question after the answer. Confusing right? Well sometimes I think those questions are our guide to success in life. A lot of us get’s curious with everything, so we take chances of that curiosity. If it’s bad, you learn how to hopefully not do it again. Then when it’s good, you learn to appreciate everything. There’s a reason why were living, and why were here. I think we are given a mission to hopefully accomplish them. Sadly, some of people give up on those mission and never really taken the chance to finish the mission. In my belief, I think we have to go through bad, crappy times first before we go through the good times. Good memories or times are an award so will have a habit to keep doing the good all the time.

Emptyness and its not a song

It’s funny how a lot of things change in just a year. It may seems so slow in that time, but looking back everything comes to you in a blink of an eye.
I miss my old self, I hate who I become. It’s so easy to take everything for granted and looking back; I kind of want to fix it. Sadly it’s kind of too late for me; I’m just looking forward for the future right now. At the same time, I’m having fun and making things awesome right now. I used to be talkative, and I laugh at everything. Now all you hear from me is dead silent, and the awkwardness. I used to be the girl where a lot of people say hi too, now I’m just a girl who looks like I don’t know anybody anymore. I really don’t know if I’m happy, or excited. All I’m feeling now is being sad, anger, or irritated. I HATE it! Why am I like this? I can’t feel anymore emotions; all I’m feeling is anger, or sadness. I’m being so emo, seriously I don’t need to complain. Somehow I have to; I just don’t know what to do. I thought I used to know a lot of things before, I don’t even know anything when I think about it. I don’t know if I care anyone, or love. I don’t know what I want to do; I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I just feel so empty and I hate it. Even if I try to think positive, somehow there’s still something I need to get out of my system. Although, writing songs has been really helpful and I guess I’ve been pretending to be happy. I don’t really want anybody to know what I’m feeling; sometimes I have to at least let somebody know.
Maybe I’m just going to a “phase”, Isn’t that what people calls it now a days? I really don’t know, my mind is blank and I don’t what I’m thinking.



I admit summer changed me completely. It was only 3 months and it either changes you different in a good way or bad. I think it changed me in a bad way. I hate how people keeps saying to forget the past, well guess what?! I just can’t forget it. There are those things that need a time to change. Sadly this one is not going to go by that fast. I cried all that summer, that’s what all I did. I cry, cry and cry my tears out. After all those summer, I feel so empty and all I can feel is being sad, mad, or anything that’s bad. I HATE THIS. Yea! The things I used to say, I’m not going to care what people thinks of me. GUESS WHAT?!? I care about it now, and I don’t want to care. I care about what I look like, and all the things I said I’m not going to do. It happened, and it sucks so much.

Last Summer new lyrics lol

Last summer

Chorus
Last summer I admit it could have been better.
I know it was last month and
We have to forget it.
We cried too many times and stayed up to late every night.

It was only 3 months and
We had changed a lot.
We almost got close together
Then suddenly we got distance.

We had to start over
Try to work this awkward phase again.
We were quiet and,
I’m trying to be comfortable with you again.
(Repeat Chorus)

I almost lost you, thought it was over.
I almost left you alone,
Because thinking that you don’t need me anymore.
(Repeat Chorus)

I almost lost you, I still can’t forget.
I almost leave you; it was too hard for me to move on.
In my heart, I still wanted to give you one more chance.

Nervous Wreck. I wrote about how I did anchoring in Broadcast

Nervous Wreck

Oh! I sit in this chair, looking at the camera.
I’m so scared,
I keep worrying what I look like.
Ew my hair’s a mess,
Lala why do I keep making weird faces?

Chorus
I can’t keep still, my throat is so dry.
I can’t speak, my legs keep moving.
Is it hot in here? Or is it just me?
I’m a nervous wreck!

All I had to do is read the prompter.
Somehow people think I look depressed.
I need more energy in the set.
I don’t want to look like I’m bored out of my head.
(Repeat Chorus)

So I got off the set
I felt sad at first.
Its ok I need to
Be more confident, or if I’ll ever do it again.
So I hope I’ll be better.

My random song I wrote today

Blah Blah

My mind is always out there.
You may think I’m listening.
I’m really thinking of something else.

My head is bobbing, can’t hardly
Keep my eyes open.
Now I’m sleeping, forgetting that
I’m still in this old place.

Chorus
I’m dreaming about anything.
Oh! I’m getting chase by the wolverine,
Then I’m eating this awesome meal.
SpongeBob is now my best friend,
And now I’m living under the sea.
Oh! I woke up, someone’s tapping me.
They ask me what were talking about,
I forget so just said blah (repeat blah 2 xs).

I have to wake up, I should have slept early.
Can’t even think,
I don’t even know what’s happening.
I want to go back in my dreams.
I want to see what happens
Next.

and another new lyricss hehe

Falling so deeply

It still feels like I’m falling for you again.
Just like when I tried to say I love you, I was so nervous
I didn’t know what to say.

Hey it was so worth it.
I still feel a little dizzy.
When I’m all around you baby.
My life is doing great, whenever you’re here with me.

Chorus
Oh I can’t believe its been awhile
My heart is still beating and I can’t stop.
I have loved you for awhile… I’m still falling so deeply.
I’m still falling so deeply.

Lately you have been on my mind for so long now.
Oh! You’re always almost on my mind, so what am I saying?
My mouth is been hurting, maybe I keep smiling.
I can’t help not being around you, I always want you by my side.

Oh I can’t believe it has been awhile.
My heart is still beating and I can’t stop.
I have always love you baby, and I’m still falling so deeply.
I’m still falling so deeply.

new lyrics again=)

No reflection

I break and I break my heart to get all this anger out of me.
Look at me, my make up is all over my face.
All my stuff is all over the place.
I jump and jump to see if I can fly;
I hate this gravity because it keeps making me stay down.

Hey who’s the girl in the mirror?
I can’t see her; I just see is my messy room.
What’s your name? I may know it or maybe not.
I touch the mirror, but I can’t see my hands.
I cried all I can see is my tear dropping down.

Chorus
No reflection of me! Where am I?
I can’t even see the way I am inside.
If you just give me the chance to show you who I really am.
Hey baby, you just passed me.
I can’t catch up to you, you move so fast.
So I’m going to stay here.
Oh and baby you didn’t notice me yeah.

You just passed by me, tried to tap on your shoulder
But you move so quickly.
I have to hurry back home because people aren’t patient.
Oh no. I don’t really know if I have home,
I just don’t know where I belong.
(repeat chorus)

like this song a lot

Enjoy the ride and make sure you got your seat belt on.



I can’t stand standing in the same spot for hours.

I can see outside and it’s beauty,

But all I can see is only its appearance, nothing else.



It’s full of stealers, liars, and cheaters.

It tricks you; it makes you believe that none of them exist.

You might get fooled by its beauty,

But you really don’t know what’s in it.

Chorus

Tie your shoelace really tight, so you won’t fall.

Keep your eyes open, and watch out for the things that will trap you.

Nothing’s easy, nothing’s easy

But baby enjoy the ride and make sure you got your seat belt on.



Who knows when this place will disappear?

I can’t predict, I’m not psychic but I’ll try to make worth my time.

Let’s keep going, don’t let anyone stop us.



It’s full of stealers, liars, and cheaters.

It tricks you; it makes you believe that none of them exist.

You might get fooled by its beauty,

But you really don’t know what’s in it.

(Repeat chorus)



I won’t deny this ride is pretty crazy.

All this turns and bumps in the road is making me fall.

Baby, enjoy the ride and make sure you got your seat belt on.

(repeat)

new song finally

Look how far



Oh my heart’s beating so fast, with you always on my mind.

I put my hand over my face so you won’t see me smile.

I look at you, you look at me; why am I so nervous what I want to say to you.

Baby, I don’t care where we are as long as your with me to stay.



I can’t close my eyes, because your really here with me.

It may not be as perfect as we want it too,

But it’s what makes me keep getting close to you.

Chorus

Oh (repeat 3x’s) If your ever gone,

I’ll loose myself and what you made me become.

Look How far we made it;

I don’t want to loose you not now or ever.

Let’s keep going, until this road ends.

Whatever the circumstances,

I’ll still love you the same.

Oh. So look how far (repeat 2x’s)

We made it.



I’ll hold you tight, but not too tight.

Will fight, will cry, and will get mad

But I would still love to talk to you

After this are all done?

(Repeat Chorus)



If you’re ever gone,

We’ll loose ourselves and waste everything we used to have.

Look how far we made it, were almost half way there.

I’m getting close to you than ever.

Let’s keep going and believe will make it.

Look how far we made it….

Blank new lyrics wrote it today lol

Blank

I’m standing here, just waiting for you to say something.
You hear me talking; pretending your listening,
But your mind is thinking of something else.
You’re looking at me, but I really
Don’t know if were in the same page here.

Hey do you understand what were talking about?
Are you in your own little world and
Don’t care what’s going on around you?
I know It’s hard to listen because so many distractions,
But your not letting me know so I’m here standing,
Holding all my frustrations.

Chorus
When you talk, I try to listen.
When you’re crying, I try to understand and be the comfort.
When you want to let your anger out, I try not to jump into conclusion.
Will you also do that for me because I also need your help too?
No you don’t, you just pretend that you care and understand.
Don’t always make me thing I’m right, I also need what mistakes I’ve done.
You keep leaving me out here blank, oh. I don’t know what to do; I’m just blank.

When I have problems; I always try to go to you.
I taught you always know what to do; maybe you know too much.
You keep getting angry, when you haven’t even heard my side.
I taught I can look up to you, but all I’ve been doing is trying to get rid of these bad habits.

Hey do you understand what were talking about?
Are you in your own little world and
Don’t care what’s going on around you?
I know it’s hard to listen because so many distractions,
But your not letting me know so I’m here standing,
Holding all my frustrations.
(Repeat Chorus)

Don’t keep saying that I’m right, tell me that I’m sometimes wrong also.
No, you just keep leaving me out here blank, oh I don’t know what to do; I’m just blank.