I can't do this

I don't know if I can go through with this..yes I have gain feelings for you, but I don't want too. I don't want to care or love someone. When I love someone its fucking strong, because I gave someone my heart and they crushed it so badly. I can't or I don't want to give my all to you. I can't....I don't want to get hurt, I know how much it hurts so fucking badly. I just can't..

Cheesy romance

You know what makes me fall in love with a guy

I want a guy who will go out of their way just to be with me. A guy who will do something different. Someone who will prove to be they want to be with me. Someone who takes me on not just a dinner, somewhere adventurous date..something that can make us get to know each other. I love cheesy romance, yes. I want a guy who will be at my door bunch of flowers just because...A guy who is willing to get to know me. I love when guys ask me question because it makes me think that they really want to get to know me.

Someone different..

I won't care

I honestly won't care if the person I like, stop caring for me. Why? because I know eventually feelings fade, its nothing but a wind that makes your whole body chill for awhile..then it goes away slowly. Nothing is ever permanent. So I have to accept it. If you want to talk away, fine. Go ahead. I have to admit, its not easy loving me. I'm stubborn as fuck, I suck at listening, I like when things go my way or I throw a fit. I get jealous easily and too clingy. I say my feelings WAYY to fucking much. I expect, yes I still do because sometimes I wish things would happen how they planned. NOO, nothing is unfair..because everyone is not on the same page. SO I don't care. I'm thinking of myself and whats important. I'm straightening my priorities. ITs FUCKED right now.

I feel like quitting

You know when a person have failed many times, they slowly want to stop trying. You know when a person try to care for someone...they slowly start to have a cold heart. You know that "smile" you see every time, but when no ones around tears bursting out from holding it in. You know that hope..thinking everything would get better. Its bullshit, things gets worst. I have to accept it. People change, things gets worst and the only thing we can do is move on.

My heart is cold..desperately need things to get better. I want to be happy, not just temporary. I don't want to be alone..I feel so alone. Its been so long now..I can't do this anymore.

how do you love

We mistaken love as lust..you don't try to get to know me. Yes, you may take me out and say you love me and come down to see me. Have you ever tried to get to know me? It's because we are having too much sex..Whenever we hang out its so repetitive..I already know whats going to happen at the end of the day. "sex" I don't want to have sex for a freaking long time honestly, its fun, but I don't want to just have sex with you. I want a fucking real relationship. Honestly, I'm not going to get attached with you or try to get close to you. I'm going to get my guard up again. I want to talk for hours, I want to have a good as communication. I want us to be able to have a day without having sex. I hate sex..