Dear heart

I've been feeling empty lately, I don't really feel that awesome feeling anymore. When your with someone and makes everything so awesome and just be happy to be with him. Now I'm always sad around him, I'm just so sad and when I used to wanting to tell him how I feel. I don't really want to anymore, because I'm afraid of being judge. I really don't want to tell him anything anymore, I'm still in love with him infinity. Loving him hurts so much now, I don't want to be sad anymore or cry anymore. I have nothing else to say to him because I said everything else, and I've tried everything else. I just wish I can move on from him, so I won't have to feel this aching heart anymore. I want to be with him, but I don't want to be with him like this. This is so unhealthy for both of us, I'm not doing this for him anymore. I'm doing this for myself, and my sake of happiness. Please don't say that I'm selfish, because ever since me and him been going out he was always first in my life and my first priority. Now I don't think I can handle it anymore.