Dear heart

It's getting harder each day, and this ache is getting bigger. I'm sorry for disappointing you, I'm sorry for trying so hard and thinking that everything will eventually get better. His the only person that found my weakness, and he really knows how to used it against me. No more playing games, I promise. I'm not worrying about anything anymore. Sometimes it just feels like this isn't love anymore, I'm really happy right now but there's still a hole in my chest. He hurt us so many times, why is it so hard to walk away? why is it so hard to forget? I can't really handle this anymore. He doesn't need me at all, and I think I should stop needing him also. I'd probably still think about him everyday, but he'll disappear in my memory eventually.