Dear Diary

I'm still in love with you, and you still are very important to me. The thing is I really don't know if you keep your word. You change so much and I'm trying to cope with it. Sometimes I don't know if I can anymore, because I'm just afraid that when I do want to leave because of you hurting me, you won't chase me anymore. Whenever we fight I always chase you back, I don't really know if your being honest with me at all. I don't know why I'm still trying, sometimes I just wish I didn't meet you or like you. I should have just move on when you just wanted to be friends with me. You make it feel like I wasn't the best part of your life, you make it feel like that I was just some girl. I don't want to be just some girl, I want to be one of the best thing that happened to your life. I don't think I'm that girl; I really tried to be that girl, so I don't think I'll try anymore. What will you do if I really walk away and stop chasing? because I'm wishing you would want me to stay.